[ one ]
There are some things that I'll never understand. I'll never understand the goosebumps I get when first stepping into hot water. I'll never understand the dreams I have with strangers in them, people I've never met or seen. I'll never understand how a person can keep going back to the ones who hurt them. But what I do understand is that once we do understand everything, the world loses its shine. Curiosity killed the cat, but the cat had nine lives.
[ two ]
I believe in sleeping in. I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80%. I believe in jamming out by yourself in the car. I believe in kisses on the forehead. I believe in smiling until your cheeks hurt. I believe that you can have just as much fun sober. I believe in taking chances and making mistakes. I believe in having someone tell you that you’re beautiful. I believe in swinging on swings and running in the rain. I believe in miracles and random acts of kindness. I believe in saying hello to anyone and everyone. I believe in second chances. I believe that everyone’s lucky to be alive.
[ three ]
Don't talk to me if the only reason you're here is because you're bored. Don't make me your last resort just because you feel lonely or you have nothing else better to do. Do I entertain you? I'm not going to be the person you run to, then suddenly leave when someone better comes along.
[ four ]
I need someone to prove to me that I'm worth it... really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same. Honestly, I thought you were that person but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for someone to take a risk on me, to fight for me, to actually care enough to not let something go; the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared. I didn't realize it then, but I do now. I don't do that for just anyone. So, call me crazy, but today.. today I realized that I can't keep waiting for you. I'm moving on, I can't stay in one place waiting. I can't be around you anymore. I'm not over it, I don't get over things fast, I never have, no matter how much I try and convince myself. I'll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow, something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe we could go back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you'll get one more chance from me, maybe you won't.
[ five ]
I believe the most difficult situation you can ever be faced with is deciding whether you should just move on or hold on a little tighter. Move on, and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have ever happened, or hold on, and have the possibility of one day it being the biggest disaster ever created.
[ six ]
I miss you in a way that tempting boys can't replace. Several lips have found mine since yours but, none were ever worth a chase. Call me pathetic, at least I'm on your mind. My dad says I'm too good for you and my little sister wishes you were still around so she could try to impress you. My mom says we were good together and I'm still looking for that mistake that made us unwind. I know you would be proud of me because we always spoke of the dreams I'm living. I hope you're doing fine and I don't find you pathetic but, you're still always on my mind.
[ seven ]
Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying, I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass. And I will keep you company through those days so long and black. And we'll keep working on the problem we know we'll never solve; of love's uneven remainders, our lives are fractions of a whole. But if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall, then I think we would see the beauty. Then we would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges, like a story told by the fault lines and the soil.
[ eight ]
I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, a million of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach, we are drawn by the ocean, taken by it's power, it's unceasing notion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and moutains, deserts and hidden rivers and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with the one we love is perhaps the greatest joy as we can know - unless it is to share our laughter.
[ nine ]
I’m so sick of the hook ups, the set-ups, the fuck-ups, the guy who only wants one thing, the guy who doesn’t know what he wants, the guy who does; but won’t admit it. I just want the real thing, and I want it to stick. I don’t want these doubts, these worries. I want a guy who won’t always be so unsure of me, of us. It’s like, they need time to decide. It’s as if they’re looking for something in particular and later on they realize they were looking for you.
[ ten ]
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common... They’re shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they’re gone.
[ eleven ]
I didn't want to kiss you goodbye.. that was the trouble. I wanted to kiss you goodnight - and there's a big difference.
[ twelve ]
There will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications, and just go for it.
[ thirteen ]
"I believe that two people are connected at heart and it doesn't matter what you do, or who you are, or where you live. There are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together"
- Julia Roberts
[ fourteen ]
You are bored of cheering me up, bored of calming me down, bored of drying my eyes,
but there once was a time when you were the one. You were the blue of the sky,
you came after the storm. You were the switch on the wall, in the hall, I am still fumbling for.
[ fifteen ]
So here's the thing. I'm great at pushing people away. I push them and test them until they leave, when really I just wanted to see if they'd stay. I don't trust easily, but I can be trusted. I lie sometimes to protect myself and I'm not good with words. I get choked up and I can't say what I want to. If I see it coming, I leave before I am left. I hold back in fear of not doing something right. I will hurt you, that is something that I can promise. But even though he knew all this, he stayed. When I expected him to leave, he stayed.
^^ this. <3
[ sixteen ]
Look, we don't have to put a label on it. I just need some consistency. I need to know you're not going to wake up in the morning and feel differently.
[ seventeen ]
"Things have been perfectly fine without you here, which I think is important to let you know. If you miss me, or if I have missed you, we haven’t let on... not yet. Although, maybe it’s coming. The late night slurs of voice messages, sad little echoes of who I used to know.. who I used to be. I haven’t been through this before, you know that, but things have prepared me for it, I believe. Things like having to gaze at the dead orange blur of a goldfish in a toilet, having to change pants because accidents happen when you are a kindergartner and you barely know better but it is still hard not to be embarrassed. I don’t think highly of myself, because what kind of girl my age does? But you always made me feel a little better about how I have to think too long before I say anything, which makes me come off as slow and sluggish and stupid, and how my hair never lies down the places I would like it to. You always made me feel better, except when you were making me feel worse, which happened more often towards the end. The end, rather anticlimactic, to tell you the truth. Not what I expected after all those spectacular fights. But it did come suddenly, I’ll give you that. You sure had me going there for a while."
[ eighteen ]
That was what I feared most: that he just wasn't excited about us anymore - that something between us had altered irreversibly. And afterward, I started seeing the evidence everywhere: in the way he didn't sleep facing me anymore, or the way he'd stopped asking me the questions he used to need to know the answers to, the way he stopped needing to tell me things in order for them to count.
[ nineteen ]
That's the thing about love, it just sneaks up behind us and grabs us around our waists and spins us around. It makes us dizzy, and even though we're scared as hell to be spinning so fast, we're actually glad to be in the strong arms that are spinning us.
[ twenty ]
Tonight your memory burns like a fire, with every one it grows higher and higher.
I know sometimes us girls get upset over the fact that a boy doesn't care for us, or that we are caring too much for a boy... we get upset that things aren't working out, or that we're growing apart from people. We wonder why someone doesn't love us, can't love us, won't love us, and sometimes we think it's a fault of ours. But, it's not. None of it is your fault, it's just that the right guy hasn't come along to sweep you off your feet.
I used to think that way, and now I have someone who loves me and makes me feel wanted. It's more than I could have dreamed of, and it's the epic summer romance that I've always wondered about, and pined over.
Things will work out, just give it time.
The right guy is out there, and trust me.... the wait is worth it.
Have an amazing day.